Terrible, terrible excitement

I’m not sure “excitement” is the right word… anticipation is more fitting maybe… I just know that “love” is perhaps too early to use.

But I really like Malin! She’s cute and sweet in a way I can’t put into words beyond that. And we share some interest in cartoons and shows and reading (though I rarely give myself time to read anymore, and have too many D&D podcasts to catch up to to listen to audio books).

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Sparks of Hope

Well. I’m about to go on a coffee date in a few minutes.

Matched with someone on Tinder again, a rare occurrence. This someone actually engaged with me, also quite rare, and she’s agreed to meet up, which so far is only the second time that’s happened.

The last time seemed to go well, but afterwards she didn’t want to talk to me anymore. No clue why. Hopefully this time will go better. Maybe Malin is the one?


Update: 2020-06-07 – 9:05 AM

It went well! We talked for like an hour and a half yesterday, and we are now texting instead of chatting through Tinder! (which sometimes is not very reliable)

She was really cute and sweet! I hope this keeps going!

Not So Work

There’s a lapse of things to do at work. Unfortunately the boss is too busy to advance the website work right now, and there are not enough other things to do right now. I might be out of a job for a while.

I’ll be fine though I think. For now. And unless the boss is lying to me, and I don’t think he is, I’ll get to resume work once there’s more things to do. So hopefully I wont have to search for another job, because I really like this one.

I’ve been at home since yesterday, but I might get to come in tomorrow for some work, and hopefully there will be more things to do before too long.

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Work & Hardware

It’s been more than two months since the last post. I don’t really think about posting things here often as is probably obvious. But once in a while I check in here and realize how long it’s been. This is gonna be a long post to get caught up.

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The Moving Art

You may or may not know that I have an art portfolio. It is linked on my front portal page and in the menu on the blog here. Maybe you came here from there via the link on the portfolio introduction.

Per the last public blog post I migrated all of my websites from my old server to a new one. More up to date, better hardware etc, and it was a whole lot of work getting everything moved over and getting the new routing set up and such, but it went well. Or so I thought.

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Well that was an experience

Wellp. Zandra broke up with me. And I honestly kind of suspected it was going to happen, although I was hoping I was wrong of course.

Sticking her tongue out, adorable
From the Europe trip

Maybe it was for the best. She never really seemed particularly interested most of the time. She was withdrawn, didn’t like being touched, never initiated anything on her own.

But sometimes she would seem to open up slightly and give me a fluttery feeling, re-affirming my love for her.

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Relations Update

I’m not sure how I should feel right now. I know how I do feel, but I’m not sure how I’m supposed to feel.

It’s about a week since we returned from the Europe trip. Zandra has been… distant, this past week. We haven’t really talked since just after we returned. I went over once to give here some of her stuff I’d gotten with me and to talk a bit, which we did. It might just be the contrast of going from being with her every day to being apart from her.

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An Opera

I’ve never been to an opera. Actually, as of today that’s a lie. I went to an opera today (technically last night) and it was a very interesting experience.

Unfortunately it wasn’t a great experience due to them often having multiple people singing different songs at the same time, which just ended up drowning each other out and making it impossible to make out what they were singing about.

The opera was “Vampyren” (The Vampire). It was the dress rehearsal, it’s supposed to premiere at Läckö Castle tomorrow (Sunday). My boss got an invitation for the company because we work on their website, so my boss, his wife (who also works at the company) and me went there.

It is originally a German opera (Der Vampyr) by Heinrich Marschner from 1828 translated to Swedish by Catarina Gnosspelius.

It was about 3 hours and I have to admit I got a little bored towards the end.

I can’t say it was the greatest opera experience for the first time, but I also don’t believe all operas are like this. But I liked the story. It was just ruined by the presentation unfortunately.

That said I think I prefer theatre. Though I don’t really go see plays a lot either…

The stage as we are entering the courtyard

A Trip, And A Return

A report of the Europe trip

A great trip later (many small ones) and one huge experience richer. It’s of course impossible to summarize the entire trip as a whole except to say it was… interesting into the last minute. I’ve learned things and experienced things and felt things. I’ve had expectations tossed onto their heads and also experienced some pain.

When I was little we went on a number of vacations, sometimes to the coast, sometimes to the mountains between Sweden and Norway to ski, and sometimes we went out camping with our caravan. In later years we started renting a sailboat each year for a few years until dad bought his own which we then went out with up until I moved out. This has been my first proper vacation with no family.

The trip in question is a car trip across Europe, from Sweden to Spain, passing through Denmark, Germany and France to get there. The trip took place because my best friend Eric got married, and was planned by him and Elin, his now wife. They decided that instead of going on a honeymoon on their own they’d organize a trip with some friends. The trip involved them, me and Zandra and Filip, who is a long time friend of me and Eric.

The trip was also going to include a sixth person but they were unable to come.

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